15-11-18 to 18-11-18
The best weekend of my life in a pure, true joy kind of form. I want to look back at it and remember a time when things had felt so right that all the wrong of the past did not matter. I want to capture this feeling so that I can live off it for the not so great days that come in my life.
Thursday, I gave a mid term test which I would later find out I score a 100 in. I was the only one out of a class of 249 to score a 100 in it and it was not all pure luck but a lot of effort and dedication went into it and I am glad it paid off. This was in the afternoon. In the evening, I received a donation towards the end of my calling shift. So happy since I had got one after so long and also, the shift was with one of my favourite people. At night, my lovely flatmate made paella and this was the first time I ever had that dish.
Friday, I treated my skin with some lovely skin products and went to the beautiful Christmas markets.
Saturday, I gathered up the courage to go to a swing social outside of university. It was very daunting and a huge part of me wanted to avoid the way I had avoided the previous socials in the past. But I mustered up the strength and went to the bar. At first it was quite awkward for me. I knew people but not well enough to comfortably talk to them. After a few vain attempts, I perched myself on the corner of the couch until this guy that I have danced with in the class arrived (I didn’t know he was coming and didn’t really think he would talk with me). But he was there with his friend and then another girl joined us and we were a nice bunch of 4 novice swingsters ( though the girl had more experience than any of us) and it was a lovely night. Later, that night I supported my friend by going to drinks with her, her crush and his friends. Though it started off comfortably, I found myself getting lonely and left (in a good way). I am glad I took in a new experience and met new people!
Sunday, I went on an incredibly amazing adventure with a friend. The trip was loosely planned which made every step we took very raw and organic. It was a very pleasantly rocky ride and I have summed up some of my feelings in the previous post. We went through random trails in the woods assisted by Google maps. Opening random gates, fearing we might be trespassing. Climbed a very tricky, sheep’s path to the top of the stones. Found an inn after a lot lot loooooot of walking and then happened the Surprise View Car Park haha. But the railway station greeted us with fireworks as if saying things would be fine. I found myself in a strange kind of bravery, unfeared by the experience when it was happening. I knew we would make home, perhaps late but home nonetheless. This mountain full of optimism in a massively pessimist person was refreshing even to my own self.
This video captures how I felt that day:
(I have not made this video, haha. These are the same feelings I felt that day as I do whenever I see this video. I felt alive, free and boundless)
I am very thankful for this weekend. I am very appreciateful for this life right now. These moments can be characterised as rare in my life and so this is my attempt to remember them forever.